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Feb. 1st, 2010

  • 11:59 PM

The Oscar nominations are announced tomorrow. With the 10 nominee lineup, I forsee LOTS of surprises. Perhaps not? Here are my predictions...

Best Adapted Screenplay
Crazy Heart
An Education
Precious: Based on the Novel Push by Sapphire
Star Trek
Up in the Air


Best Original Screenplay
(500) Days of Summer
A Serious Man
The Hurt Locker
Inglourious Basterds
Up


Best Supporting Actor
Woody Harrelson, The Messenger
Christian McKay, Me and Orson Welles
Christoper Plummer, The Last Station
Stanley Tucci, The Lovely Bones
Christoph Waltz, Inglourious Basterds

Best Supporting Actress
Mo'Nique, Precious: Based on the Novel Push by Sapphire
Vera Farmiga, Up in the Air
Anna Kendrick, Up in the Air
Mélanie Laurent, Inglourious Basterds
Julianne Moore, A Single Man

Best Actor
Jeff Bridges, Crazy Heart
George Clooney, Up in the Air
Colin Firth, A Single Man
Morgan Freeman, Invictus
Jeremy Renner, The Hurt Locker

Best Actress
Sandra Bullock, The Blind Side
Helen Mirren, The Last Station
Carey Mulligan, An Education
Gabourey Sidibe, Precious: Based on the Novel Push by Sapphire
Meryl Streep, Julie & Julia

Best Director
Kathryn Bigelow, The Hurt Locker
James Cameron, Avatar
Lee Daniels, Precious: Based on the Novel Push by Sapphire
Jason Reitman, Up in the Air
Quentin Tarantino, Inglourious Basterds

Best Picture
Avatar
District 9
An Education
The Hurt Locker
Inglourious Basterds
Invictus
Precious: Based on the Novel Push by Sapphire
A Serious Man
Up
Up in the Air


Life lament

  • Jan. 20th, 2010 at 1:03 AM

Fuck my mom. This is the second time she's officially abandoned me. While she moved off to Portland to go work in Salem and live with the love of her life, she didn't pay the rent and now my roommate, also known as my uncle, and I have to find places to live. This is all sorts of fucked. On a shortlist of least favourite things to do in the world is moving. I fucking hate it and I wouldn't be surprised if I have already expressed my disgust in the action. It just causes me to reflect on every single little memory tied to each individual item. Of course, I have attachments to most of my possessions because I'm nutso. Oh... and I have to be out by the weekend. This weekend.

BLAH! Hopefully, it all works out. Perhaps Ariel and I will just have to get a place together. Maybe I'll have to look into getting a place on my own. That seems cool and all, but I'm a few months shy of being psychologically prepared to deal with all of that. Why now? Why, when I'm already in over my head in coursework?

Hmmm... other than that, yeah... just pretty angsty. Actually, I've been extremely angsty.

Return: some thoughts

  • Jan. 19th, 2010 at 5:36 PM


I have new ideas for this blog! I want four HUGE video screens down either side of the cat walk. I want to flash up pictures of sad but beautiful children, happy gay couples. Slogans like "World Health", ""No pollution!", "Fashion Cares!" Alright, darling? And print out thousands of new invitations on green, totally-recycled paper and cap them around to everyone.

So... leaky leaky! So far, I've been checking out leaks this year.


Beach House - Teen Dream

As we all should have known since November of last year, Beach House's Teen Dream rocks so much. Her voice is raspier, more erotic and the song structures are less predictable than those on the other two albums. Overall, it's a different sound... but not. Just the same but brand new, as Annie Clark might say. It's an admirable effort of modifying and exploring their already well-established sound. It won't disappoint nor alienate original fans, but it could certainly gain them some new ones--fortunately, without trying. A very strong welcome to the upcoming year in music.

Liars' Sisterworld is pretty satisfying--loving the opening track a lot right now. Owen Pallett's Heartland.. When it's good, it's awesome. When it's not, it's very questionable and a bit boring. I should definitely give it another listen, but I think it's definitely his weakest.

I still haven't heard their debut, but I snatched Vampire Weekend's Contra and I really dig it! The first seven songs are just so splendid--a very strong batch of songs. Then, we get "Giving Up the Gun"... which is truly awful. It does not belong there and it's just so... Panic! at the Disco-esque. Fortunately, they winningly triumph with "Diplomat's Son", which could very well be my favourite song of the year thus far, and "I Think Ur a Contra". So, will the self-titled blow my mind or is this a new sound? I'm glad I checked them out finally.


So, the Golden Globes... Ricky Gervais was fucking hilarious!

Golden Globe Predictions

  • Jan. 17th, 2010 at 11:24 AM

Michele, that was the trailer.

So, yeah. I'm going to predict the Golden Globes. Only the film categories.

Best Foreign Film
The White Ribbon

Best Animated Film
Up

Best Original Song
Brothers

Best Screenplay
Up in the Air

Best Director
Kathryn Bigelow, The Hurt Locker

Best Supporting Actress
Mo'Nique, Precious: Based on the Novel Push by Sapphire

Best Supporting Actor
Christoph Waltz, Inglourious Basterds

Here's to raping the awards season!

Best Actress - Comedy/Musical
Meryl Streep, Julie & Julia

Best Actor - Comedy/Musical
Joseph Gordon-Levitt, (500) Days of Summer

Seriously, why not?

Best Actress - Drama
Sandra Bullock, The Blind Side

*shudders*

Best Actor - Drama
Jeff Bridges, Crazy Heart

I think the rest of the award season will be very generous with him.

Best Picture - Comedy/Musical
Nine

They sure love their musicals...

Best Picture - Drama
The Hurt Locker

Honestly, this is one hell of a race:

5. Precious

Definitely not going to happen.

4. Inglourious Basterds
My personal preference and wouldn't count it out.

1. Avatar
It made a zillion dollars.

1. Up in the Air
Has also held a grand stance in the precursors...

1. The Hurt Locker
I know... it is such a tiny film. It's itty-bitty. But... we'll just see.


Jan. 13th, 2010

  • 4:49 PM

Through no direct influence of my own, Patrick Wolf is following me on Twitter.

Nov. 8th, 2009

  • 7:40 PM


Well, I may as well write in my livejournal while I avoid the math homework that's right in front of me.

Last weekend, I went to Lacey's Halloween party which was a lot of fun. I was Kevin Barnes' Georgie Fruit. Not surprising at all and at this point a Roger cliché, but whatever man. It's not like a collect cheques from my parents. I nearly got in a brawl and Elle's boyfriend came and rescued me.

I've felt very... blah lately. Very empty. There's a lot of shit going on with my family, but none of that has really bothered me. I choose not to let it, but it's definitely other things that pain me and have taken over. Blah. I'm no longer very bright and bubbly. I don't really know what's going on. I don't remember if I shared this, but I began seeing a therapist. It was fine for a while, but now I realise it just really isn't working out for me since the things I should be discussing right now,I don't even want to discuss with myself. Let alone with other people.

This isn't even an issue for me, but my father's going to jail tomorrow. I'm sure I've mentioned that my mother's always off to Portland, so I never see her. While I've never felt I really had the concept of parents, I now don't even physically have them. Scarlett must have tipped off the relatives to help me out financially, giving out my contact information (which I thought they've always had since my number has always been the same since some days before my 12th birthday.) I'm fairly certain my aunt was drunk texting me the other night: asking if this was the correct number, making the expected icebreaking Helen Keller jokes, and calling me a "sweet little prince."

There definitely aren't very many things to do in this town. All's left is creativity. Alex and I called up people and impersonated celebrities: "It's Jennifer Aniston... from friends!" That was really cool. More fun than that was going to Wal-Mart, trying on (and later purchasing) the creepiest clearance Halloween masks, and paging Marge Gunderson to Customer Service. Do you know how hilarious it is to hear Marge Gunderson over the loud speaker? "Marge Gunderson, if you're in the building, please meet your party in the shoes department. Marge Gunderson, your party is waiting for you." Before the Wal-Mart expedition, we texted up random people asking them for money (for no reason), fabricating the most flamboyantly absurd stories that tarnished Alex's "good" name. I later instructed him to call up people pretending to be on LSD. We later went to Cold Stone, where one of the called individuals was working, and we put on the LSD performance.

I've watched a lot of films these past few days: Julia, Julie & Julia (sans Julie), Thirteen, The Parent Trap, and Fargo. The latter three being rewatches and the former two being initial viewings. I am fine with Streep's seemingly likely inevitable third, but will put out good thoughts for Ms. Swinton. God. I love Julia Harris! She's such a role model and such a dignified and established woman. I want to be like her. She joins the ranks of Aileen Wuornos, Sara Goldfarb, and Jane F for on-screen goddesses. As embarrassing as it is, Thirteen is so nostalgic. Reminding me so much of my time in middle school. Not that I lied, cheated, and stole and had to explain $860 in my purse, but I definitely was no bra, no panties. Goddamn, there are so many good lines from that.

Well, I'm at Starbucks with Alex. We're supposed to be doing homework. He's doing stress-releaving math problems, while I'm doing this plausibly cortisol-inducing entry. I'm really looking forward to Thanksgiving Break. Peace, reprieve, and just chillin'!

3:14pm

Oct. 29th, 2009

  • 11:38 PM

I guess maybe I should start writing again. Maybe...

Well, this week was relatively stressful, not that it didn't have its shining moments. Tonight was a lot of fun, spent it with Alex and Erik. We went to the Pretty Pussy Cat, where we convinced Erik to get a very scandalous nurse costume. Afterwards, the two came over to my house and we watched Milk.

Making up for last year's nothingness, this Halloween I am going to two different parties. I made an effort to try to find a less predictable costume, but when I got home and started putting my fishnets on... I knew what had to be done.

Oct. 28th, 2009

  • 5:07 PM

softsubtlesilent.blogspot.com

Michele's new blog.

Oct. 21st, 2009

  • 3:51 PM

I've a new bed. It has a frame and it's so high up. I'm just getting used to the thinner air. It's clean and so virginal!

Oct. 19th, 2009

  • 9:17 PM


I can't even begin to write this properly. I don't really know what to do. I am so incredibly devastated.

Mandy died. Just reading what I just wrote was almost too much for me.To even comment on how unexpected this was is just... ugh. I can't even finish writing this.



I can hardly even believe it. Everything in this house reminds me of her. Her bowl and how she'd always protect it as you'd walk by. The hose and how she'd always play and try to bite at the water. Everything. I had to the leave the house between everything that was going on in my own head, my mother has completely lost it.

I've reported similar stories, but she's completely in the right on this one. Mandy was like a daughter to her. Compared to the death of a human, people don't seem to have much sympathy for the loss of a pet. For me, and it's true with my sister as well, it's much harder. My mother doesn't know what she's going to do without Mandy in her life.

This is almost unbearably painful. I never thought I could feel the pain I felt after my cat died again, but this might be just as hard. I would give anything for one more day with her. It's not just painful for me. As I said, my mother is literally beside herself. Ariel is also emotionally wounded. What makes this even harder is how Bodie is taking it. Noah already left with Don and now he had to see Mandy being carried out. He's all alone now and this shatters my heart even more, especially since I can't reach out to him.

I personally don't know how this year is going to go without her generous love and affection. For those of you who only knew her as the dog who barked as anyone entered or left the house, you truly missed out on a special dog. For a dog who went through so much before we got her (torture, homelessness, abuse, etc), it always amazed me how loving and full of joy and life Mandy was. The idea of none of that spunk and uplifting sweetness existing in my day-to-day life is just disturbing.

Everyone might say they have or had the best dog in the world, but I don't believe them one bit. I was truly blessed to have Mandy in my life as long as I did. I will love her forever. I already had to experience walking into my house for the first time. I've never been so shot by silence.

Oct. 16th, 2009

  • 7:13 PM




Whoa. Freaky! This was seriously my day up until noon.

Ended up in the hospital so Alex could get his xrays done where a nurse (more like a bouncer) asked Alex and me, "How old are you two?" We gave us her age. "Okay. Well, you have to use hand sanitiser before you can get in."

Afterwards, we had the worst service ever at Shari's. The chocolate chip pancakes were delicious, but the mozzarella sticks were disgraceful.

So, yeah. That's pretty much my speech.

Oct. 11th, 2009

  • 5:49 PM


"It's the best day of his life when you're here."
-Ariel, on my father

Yeah... I spent the day in my sister's room on my laptop. But it's still the best day of my father's life.

It was the best day of my life, two years ago, at the time.

Without even thinking about it, I wore the same giraffe tee I wore to that concert today.

I guess that's it? My blog sucks now! Sorry, Nicole. Sorry, Michele.

Sep. 21st, 2009

  • 11:53 PM

I spoke with the school into which I'm looking and things are looking promising. Sure, I was a zombie during first period, but I had such a lovely little mini-morning before. After receiving the greatest sound clip of all time, Alex had a surprise for me: John driving us to school! It was so lovely.

Today was the International Day for Peace. Our art class made pin wheels. So... I hope you all were peaceful! *wags finger*

My mother finally retuned today. Apparently, she's officially the girlfriend of that guy. I'm very happy for her. Before I found this out and took a much needed nap, I went out to dinner with Ariel. I have very mixed feelings about the dinner. Allie was there too. It was basically just the two of them talking, so this wasn't really like my chance to reconnect with Ariel or anything. Whatever.

During Psychology, rather than spending the day studying, I discussed masturbation and relationships with a group of people. Good discussion!

99.8
5

Sep. 20th, 2009

  • 11:38 PM

Yesterday, I hung out with my father, just father and son, for the first time in who knows when. He and I used to go to the cinema all the time and see all of the films that I thought looked good or, of course, the Oscar contenders. Before the film, we went to dinner, then Barnes & Noble. We saw The Hurt Locker, which was great for the most part. Overall, it was a very pleasant experience and I hope to do it more often throughout my final year here. I've been so disconnected with him these past five years and it was time I made an effort and not distance myself from him so much.

After the film, I received a drunken phone call from my sister and it just set me off into a freak out about everything: my life, my family, my mental wellness, everything. Especially my relationship with Michele. Thankfully, she was online when I came back in from chain smoking to help relieve some stress. I am happy to say she and I resolved our unspoken issues. I feel a lot better and continue the path of bettering my life.

I guess it's about time I mention on here that, yes, I am very much in love, and, no, I am not moving to San Francisco or Portland anymore. I am moving to London. And I couldn't be happier. I've also quit smoking weed for the time being.

I took myself out to lunch today. I still don't know why people think that's sad. I stress the importance of a good relationship with yourself. After all, you know, you are the person with who you will always be. JBY. I spent most of the day like Nicole Kidman in Cold Mountain: watching snow while waiting for Jude Law to return... except without the snow. Yeah... so? Judge me.

Alex and I later went out to dinner. What's with downtown? It's so nice, but there is no one and nothing there. It's such a wasted piece of geography. We ended up getting pancakes with chocolate chips on top and mozzarella sticks at Shari's. Neat, huh?

Oh! And we smoked a cigar. Okay... just imagine. Roger and Alex smoking a cigar. I think it's hilarious.

Congratulations to Shohreh Aghdashloo for winning an Emmy tonight! You go, girl!

Sep. 19th, 2009

  • 10:29 AM

It is 10:30am. I'm starving and I've had to resort to macaroni and cheese for breakfast. My mother really shouldn't allow this divorce to get in the way of her grocery shopping. Not okay. I'm pissed, frankly.

Sep. 18th, 2009

  • 8:50 PM

"la la la la la... the boy is in love... la la la la la la..."
-Patrick, circa Christmas 2007

I had a severe attack of vertigo today. I was putting on seat covers in my mom's car and felt it coming. Completely fell backwards. Got up and fainted again. Then I started vomitting. I was in my underwear. Some neighbours saw. Later, I was seen trying to get the mail and putting the key in every box until I found the right one. The neighbourhood probably suspects I have a drinking problem. Thank god it was 12:40pm. Thank god!

However, I had a lovely day. :)

I unexpectedly ended up at a birthday party of my friend Sierra. Sierra and I were best friends in elementary school. I took Mandy with me and she didn't have nearly as much as I did.

My day demonstrated great promise and continues to do so. I think I might go out to dinner with Alex. Not sure though. I'm awaiting a phone call. Until then, folks: J-New.

Sep. 18th, 2009

  • 10:48 AM

I just had the most bizarrely vivid dream where I stayed the night at my friend Rosa's house. I even was consciously thinking of writing in my livejournal about how fucking weird it was that I was staying at Rosa's house and it seemed like I had been there on multiple occasions. Her sister, who was not Claudia, was wearing a very elegant shirt that said, "My boyfriend is now handsome"

Chocolate soymilk and cigarettes.

Sep. 17th, 2009

  • 11:32 PM

I'm sorry that I've kind of let my livejournal die. I am almost entirely devoid of angst lately and don't really need this outlet as much anymore.

I ended up hanging out with Megan, her boyfriend Josh, Claire, and Shanyil tonight. Strangest combination ever. We went over to Josh's house and I met the most charismatic father since I don't remember. REALLY loud rock music was played in my presence. If someone had told me this morning these events would occur, I would have been really surprised. I was really surprised, but a very good evening, indeed.

As grown up as I thought I may have been previously, I basically did all of my growing up in the duration of like... two weeks? With all of the events occurring in my life and the decisions I've been making, my drive is undoubtable!

I'm babysitting Mandy this weekend and probably won't be leaving the house. At least not with Mandy. My mom is going out of town for the first time in a zillion years. She has rekindled a friendship with an old high school friend and it is obvious they are the smitten kitten for one another. Yes. She is finally leaving my stepdad and I think her and my relationship will drastically improve throughout this next year. Sure, it won't be a flawless one, but even now we are getting along so much better.

I can't even put my finger on any issue in my life that is troubling enough to upset me. I hope to complete my eighteenth year here and make it count.

Kelsey and I are both experiencing our initial listens of Eskimo Snow. As you might know, I had a ticket to see WHY? last year, but failed to manage a ride to see them. For her birthday, Megan and I are going up to Portland to meet up with my favourite reindeer to see them! With Mount Eerie, even! Very excited.

Sep. 15th, 2009

  • 2:56 AM

I am honestly the happiest I've ever been in my life (so far.)

I will be even happier a year from now.